Innocence

Today, I didnt go to work. Flu got me since yesterday. But, I am better now.

Yesterday, I told someone that I love that... I made mistake!, I made mistake regarding my feeling toward that X (X is refer to that someone). Why I did that?, it was cause I felt numb, breathless, and insomnia the day before cause thinking of X. Why I can't be with X?, because X already has a lover!.., and much more complicated than you might thought!, and this X is reside far away from me, even different country.

The Innocence ...
Why I put this word in the title of this post ?. Innocence is the perfect term or word to explain how the feeling was!, yeah.. the feeling was Innocence!, it was so pure, so deep and beautiful eventually!, only the circumstances and conditions made it , simply IMPOSSIBLE!.. Innocence >< Impossible !.. that's it:):)

I was inspired by Avril Lavigne song "Innocence" :

AVRIL LAVIGNE LYRICS

"Innocence"

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by


Link :
http://youtu.be/nz8YlySTuFw


So...
I will not blame my feeling for X, and I can't blame X cause made me care bout soo much and hurted me unintentionally!, nobody made mistakes about the feeling, but I admitted, I made mistake on letting it stayed!, and didn't wash it away sooner, therefore it hurted me longer.


Dear pals, have u ever felt something like this before?..
U know, all u have to do is, let it then move on.. I wont say it's easy, but at least u need to let ur sense win!, need to think with ur brain not only ur heart!... let's learn this life more :)


Good luck fellas :>